Sunday, February 2, 2020

State of the Monkey 2020 Edition


            Where should I even begin?  So much to say for a Christmas card.  Holiday talk could fill one of these alone.  And then there’s what I did for New Year’s Eve that could fill a full blog itself too.  I mean all the things and then none of them. 

            Ok, fine. I’ll go through all of them; one by one.  Be ready for a long one here.  And be ready to see in my head a bit; see what I think about and how I don’t deal with it.  You’ve been warned.
            First thing first.  I was sick for most the holiday week.  Sinus infection starting Sunday 12/22 and beat me through the week.  I saw the doc on that Monday, new I needed to get on get something and start fighting back or it was going to be a even more miserable holiday.  I was so miserable Christmas eve, that the boss sent me home after two hours into the half day.  I sat down for a water break; he looked at me, “You look like some beat your ass.”  Yea, I’m sick tends to be the case.  He told me to go home and that he’d punch me put at noon.  This was the third year running now that I’ve been miserably sick for Christmas.
            The holidays being in the middle of the week made things weird.  Made the weeks seem longer but in a short way.  BOO MONDAY!  WOO WEEKEND! BOO WORK. WOO WEEKEND FOR REAL! Then work was further tossed around with the boss and one of our counter guys being gone for a week or days through all of it.  So, yea and good ol’ J.O. to hold the place down.  OH! AND THEN THERE’S MY BONER OF A FUCK UP!!!!! During the week that the boss was away; I had to make deliveries using the box truck.  Nothing out of the ordinary; but I had not driven said truck in a good three weeks or so.  Where may I be going with this story; I FUCKED the garage door!  There was no warm up, I ran through it.  I thought it was all the way up; I swear it was up…nope!  Boss’s response: So, are we calling you Wreck it Ralph now?
            Tres: I HAD A DATE!
            For most, this sounds like nothing.  But for me; who has been single for a FUCKING DECADE!!!!! This is a bit of a big deal.  Not only was it a date; but it was on New Year’s Eve.  So, there are…certain hope and wants to have.  Such as drinks throughout the night, and then bringing in the next year with a kiss.  Well there is so much to talk about this WHOLE thing.  The girl is someone that I have been friends with for about 6 years.  I held a hand of card, so to speak; but I never played the hand.  Well, after, another long story, shall we say. We reconnected more, and things sparked, I guess.  I DID in FACT make HER, ASK ME!!! I wasn’t looking, and past experiences left a VERY bad taste for the whole pursuit of romance or love.  The date went well; save for all the drank.  She had me over to her place and made dinner.  IT WAS SO GOOD; but also, lots of sticky foods.  Sticky meaning that I had acid reflux/indigestion for much of the night, which turned me off from adding booze in a new setting.  I did get a new year’s kiss so cannot complain at all.  Date one was a success; date will follow whenever it can.  We both have lives and commitments; so not rush on anything at all.  And I think that that’s going to be the best thing about this.
            AND ANOTHER THING! Well all in all for the holidays; with work stress and life stress and this or that.  I may or may not have gotten into some trouble.  Nothing legal or serious in anyway; but some trouble.  I have this great ability to overthink things and run scenarios ion my head that WILL never happen.  I put myself in a tizzy with ease and I’m never good at dealing with the aftermath AT ALL!  Things are ok now.  I’ve done a reset on with a dry month and lots of self-thought on better ways to deal with my own mind and what it wants to do to me. 
            Aside from all that shiznitz; nothing to report.  Day to day is just THAT; SSDD.  Which is ok I can deal with that.  Goals to state is just keep being me and chatting with my boo every day; or at least send her a morning greeting message.  I’m going to try to get off my lazy ass and work Lyft a bit more, I need to pay off the mattress that’s been on layaway for a good year now; and I want to pay off my credit card.  I also need a knew phone, running with a Samsung G7, it’s starting to show signs hardcore (battery mainly).  And then I need to get some money saved for emergencies or whatever I want/need it for.
            Biggest goal I have is to write more.  I know I say this all the damn time.  I’ll start a project, work hard through it for a period, then get lazy and fall off for a good month.  Definitely need to not do that.  I have this blog and I get more and more ideas for spouting off every day; the world we live in is… (blinks heavy) YEAH!  I’m going to start sourcing materials and time for a much larger writing project that I’ve been sitting on for a ling time.  It is a fanfiction, by definition, but I think that the story I’m looking to tell in the world that it is set will interest most everyone. I also still need to format my damn play and aim for publication for that. So many things.

            [Raise glass of scotch] Here’s to 2020!!!!